Feel more and think less...

I am studying feelings.  A psychic told me I needed to get in touch with my feelings in order to write better.  This was the beginning of an adventure/ordeal for me.  I am very good at repressing my feelings.  I am sure I learned this as a child and perfected it the first 30 years of my marriage.  Now as the bud of my emotions slowly blossoms, I understand that emotions are the way we connect with the universe.  I have been reading books on emotions and it seems that they hold the truth and mystery of life. 

When my studies are complete, I will share all that I have learned with you.  In the meantime, start to notice your emotions and feelings.  Be respectful and don't suppress this valuable source of understanding. 

What might have been...

Lately, I've been pondering "what might have been."  I am struggling with a project I feel I should have finished years ago.  I have struggled with the overwhelming sense that I was meant to do this for decades now.  But the project is not done and I am still struggling.  Since I am older now, I have started to ask myself, "What am I to learn from this?"  None of the pondering bring me peace, only remorse for not doing it.  So to add to the remorse of not accomplishing this task, I have started the pondering of what might have been.

If I thought this line of thinking would motivate me, I was wrong.  I am now not only depressed because this task seems to great, but I am mourning the lose of perceived missed opportunities.  This line of thinking has come about from reading about quantum physics.  My understanding of quantum physics is that there are alternate dimensions where the realities of different choices are played out.  I want to move to a different movie theater. I want to see the results of what might have been.  I realize that I am picturing the results as better but my voice of reason is saying it may not be true.

I know I need to stay present.  My forgiveness mantra of "You did the best you could do."  is probably appropriate.  Shouldn't life be lived backwards?  We start with the wisdom and truth that we have learned throughout our years and live an entire enlightened life. Okay, back to the present - the struggle.

What perspective can I adopt that will help me get through this project?  I will ponder this today.  Stay tuned...

We are having a relaxing day today reading in the garden...

Our biggest challenge will be where to get lunch. My post will end soon since I will be losing Internet access.

Tuscany

We are on top of a hill in Tuscany. The view is breath taking. We had dinner with all the guests last night. It was fabulous. This will be a quiet day.

Latin come alive...

Today we explored ancient Rome. Miss Parkus was with me in spirit. Only my sister, Betty, knows here. It was probably one of the few teachers we shared. It was an interesting day. Then we met the Oschners for happy hour.

Rome

Our time with Kathy, Maurice, Rosie and John was delightful as well as educational. We learned how champagne was made and bottled. We visited a small champagne vineyard and enjoyed the tasting in their home. The last night together we stayed at the B & B of an old friend of Maurice's. We ate dinner al fresco, outside. I felt like we were in the movie " Under the Tuscan Sun." the weather has been perfect. We walked the area around the Colleseum this morning. We are meeting the Oschners for cocktails later on the Spanish steps. Tomorrow it is off to the airport to meet the Browns and pick upa car to drive to Sienna. Bobby and I are still friends...

Champagne

We are in the champagne region of France staying at a B & B. I have learned alot about the process of making champagne. Today we are touring a small champagne making business. Rosie's friend John is knowledgeable about the process. It is beautiful country. There are rolling hills and fields of wine. Our greatest challenge is how to get more bottles of champagne into our already stuffed car. We are moving to the chablis region tomorrow.